The most dreaded statement in the lives of HAPPILY married couples-Let’s get something to eat…the result is disaster of untold proportions. Out of nowhere, something possesses us that leads to erratic driving, tight, spittle ridden lips and unspeakable thoughts toward the ones we love. What do we really want? Where did we eat last time? Are we really that hungry? Are we dressed to be “out on the town?” Before we know it, we are driving home to Totino’s and Ramen, the participation trophies of every battle lost to our “eating” indecision.
How does this happen? How can I be so decidedly indecisive even when I know I want something more? I tend to think that we would rather live mired with irrelevance than be exposed by stepping out and just making the decision. We want to connect, and we want to matter. And at the same time, we are uncomfortable with the unknown and new things make us sweat. We fear that what we are doing isn’t making a difference and we also fear the launch that makes the difference that we so passionately want to make. So, we settle for the decision of indecision. It’s always safe but NEVER satisfying. We get nestled in a quilt of comfort and from there, “failure” is not even an option, or so we think. However, if the truth were known, our safe harbors and comfy common grounds may be the biggest failures of our life. Mark Batterson said, “we can do nothing wrong and still do nothing right.” That stings a bit doesn’t it….. as we struggle to make the first step into the unknown after hearing only the faintest whisper that says, “follow me.” It’s so easy to just tread the water, be faithful and “watch” God do things all around us. The safe and serene valley of indecision offers the best seats in the house- assuming you don’t mind watching someone else vanquish valleys and crest peaks that you have dreamed of yourself. Wayne Cordiero shared the following thoughts on failure: “The truth is you will fail. You simply don’t have what it takes to finish when you begin. You may have the calling, the zeal, the energy, the location, the invitation and even the money. But what’s missing is the inner core, the tensile strength that is revealed only under strain. This is the testing that ratifies your calling….something that is only acquired through failure. Failure is where you learn your limits and finally stop trusting yourself and start trusting God.”
Today, right now, make the decision for the first step. Even if that step is into the deep and dark unknown; guised as danger or even failure. Hear Him and challenge Him to confirm your course or correct it. Embrace the strain, face the fear, navigate the newness, and just launch…. YES, with reckless abandon. We have a calling to matter. Though not in the eyes of man or in the expectations of the shore dwellers living on the crowded isle of status quo. Our calling is to be vessels of service and value to Messiah!! The following words are from Mark Batterson’s book Not Safe. They will not let me sleep. They haunt me in my quiet time. They leave me unsettled and undone. “When did we start believing that God wants to send us to safe places to do easy things? Jesus didn’t die to keep us safe. He died to make us dangerous. Faithfulness is not holding the fort. It’s storming the gates of hell. The will of God is not an insurance plan. It’s a daring plan. The complete surrender of your life to the cause of Christ isn’t radical. It’s normal. Quit living as if the purpose of life is to arrive safely at death. Pack your coffin.”
Indecision is a decision…. just not mine.
Rev. R. Dewayne Sims